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Cancer is Dance. Here are the steps

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Right to Try is a lie

I will prevailWhen the President signed the Right to Try law at the end of May, I suddenly went from persona non gratis as a #preexisting condition to a terminally ill darling  whose life Congress and the administration were gushing to help save.

That was until yesterday when I actually tried to use the law to my benefit.

Maybe you’ve heard of this thing called “Precision Medicine” which is ushering in a new age in cancer treatment. Thanks to DNA decoding, cancer patients like myself can have their tumor’s DNA decoded to see if it offers any new information for treatment options.

In my case, new pathology shows my tumor is 100% androgen positive, in addition to being estrogen positive. That means the tumor, now deprived of its estrogen feast because of the numerous anti-estrogen drugs I’ve been on, is now slurping down androgen to survive.

The problem is the anti-androgen drugs on the market are so far only approved for prostate cancer, not breast cancer. There are clinical trials underway for breast cancer, but I don’t qualify for them.

That’s where the Right to Try law offered some hope. Its goal, at least we were told, was to give terminally ill people like myself the option of trying drugs that weren’t yet approved by the FDA for treatment of my type of cancer, but had shown promise. All I needed to do was sign an informed consent that said I am willing to serve as a guinea pig and accept all the risks that come with it.

I knew going into it there would be appeals and denials. One thing I didn’t expect was how cavalier my pharmacy benefits manager Prime Therapeutics would be. My oncologist scheduled a peer-to-peer appeal – where their doctors hear out her arguments over the benefits of this drug – to take place while she was on vacation. For whatever reason, they couldn’t make the call and rescheduled it a week later.

I’m only a terminally ill patient who’s not on treatment. What’s another week’s wait?

That appeal was schedule for 11 a.m. yesterday. When the panel failed to make the call, my oncologist’s team went to work tracking them down. An hour later the benefits manager sent an email saying the appeal wouldn’t be heard. End of story.

Obviously I was frantic. Didn’t they know about this Right to Try law? Certainly my patient rights have been violated. I spent the next hour looking for news articles, testimony, anything I could find about it. Finally, I found the text of the law.  One, single page. I’ve never known a law to be written so succinctly.

When I read it I learned that it offers patients nothing, in fact it expressly states that it creates “no mandate or entitlement” for patients. The only thing it does is let drug companies off the hook should they agree to offer me the drug, it doesn’t work or I get some horrific side effects and want to sue.

This point was completely missed by the press coverage of the new law, which went to great lengths to talk to doctors who obviously don’t spend a lot of time with the “terminally ill”  but were more than willing to talk about how innocents like myself were now sure to be duped or misled by the holy grail of a treatment promise.

Even the law as it’s written seems to see those of us who are terminally ill as frail, bed-ridden, desperate folks looking for some Hail Mary pass that will buy us a few days or a month of life.

Sorry folks, that’s Hollywood, not life. Most of us live quite active, robust – even athletic lives. The way we extend those lives is a series of running plays – drugs that we’re guaranteed at some point will stop working, but that have added days, months, sometimes years to our life.

The more drug options we have to stave off our disease, the longer we have to live. And hopefully somewhere in that timeline a more effective treatment comes online.

In order for a Right to Try law to be effective, it needs to address all the players – the drug companies, the health insurance companies, doctors, hospitals, patients, caregivers and researchers.  And we need to see ourselves as part of a team whose goal is to create optimum health, quality of life and longevity.  We need to lose this “us against them” mentality where the patient seems to be the biggest loser.

There’s a lot of reason to hope with what’s going on in the world of cancer. But what’s the use of any of it if patients can’t take advantage of the progress being made?




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Nancyspoint reblog: Bending into the wind

I’m pleased to share the second #MetsMonday featured post. This one is from Liz Johnson, blogger at Breast Cancer Conscript. Liz was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer in February 2015, less than four years after her initial stage 2 diagnosis. 904 more words

via “Bending Into the Wind” by Liz Johnson – A #MetsMonday Featured Post — Nancy’s Point

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5 ways to keep your credit clean while mired in medical debt

medical debt

  1. Prepare for escalating medical costs by taking a hard look at your current household budget and expenses and see if there’s any place that can be cut.
  2. Make friends with the billing people at the hospital and the doctors office. Let them know your circumstance and ask them to work with you on a discount and payment plan.
  3.  Ask the billing folks or a hospital social worker about financial assistance programs. Likewise, ask them if any of the drugs they’re prescribing have a pharmaceutical co-pay assistance program.
  4. Check your credit report to be sure medical debt isn’t showing up on it. Familiarize yourself with ways to get bad marks removed from your credit report by going into the chat room of
  5. If a bill does show up on your credit report and you can’t get the credit reporting agency to remove it, call the creditor and see if you can negotiate having the bad mark removed if you pay off the debt

Do you have any recommendations or resources? Please leave them in the comments section below.

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A Note From The Changed to The About To Change

There’ so much to tell you, so much you won’t be able to listen to. So I’ll start simple. Overwhelmed, right? Don’t worry, that passes. And the things you’re worried about right now? They won’t come to pass. And even if they do, somehow you survive. You make it to become The Changed. And yes, boy is life about to change in ways big and small.


Scared, right? It’s OK. Just take a deep breath and a look around you. Start picking out the things you like, the things you’re grateful for. For now, concentrate on that. I have a hunch that when you do, the universe finds a way to send you more of that stuff. And even if I’m wrong, it pulls you through the fear. So just try it.


I know you don’t want to hear this right now, but it’s going to take a lot longer than you think. Sure, you have plans, things to accomplish while in the midst of change. Maybe you will. But there’s a good chance you won’t. When you’re changed, you’ll be OK with that. You’ll find peace in veering off course and the chances and opportunities it brings. With the stories you’ll have to tell because of it. Even the friends you’re likely to make because of it.


Will you miss the things you are holding on so tightly to right now? A little. At times, you’ll feel a pang of pain over all you’ve lost. But it’s just a reminder of where you’ve come from and how you’ve learned to let go, not hold so tightly. And that makes you smile, like a rainbow through the raindrops.

It doesn’t matter how you get here: kicking, screaming, ranting, raving or sullen and insolent. You will get here. You will be changed. Forever. And after a spell, you’ll find some gratitude. And then you’ll know you’ve healed.

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